"I ignored God’s whispers to come to find rest in His arms and fled instead to anything that would lessen the dull aching sense that life was too much: TV, sleep, friends, food.

This morning my self-medication had its full effect. I woke up with a hardened heart: dull and unfeeling; unresponsive even to His Word.  I had wanted to stop the pain, and I succeeded in numbing my heart.  A hollow victory indeed."

From Fabs.